Wednesday, February 10, 2010

My Heart is Breaking

Bubby is sharing with me these pleasantries this morning:

"I don't love you."

"I don't like you."

"I'm still sad."

(He went to bed crying last night because of an atrocity involving bedtime book choice. Apparently it's still rocking his world.)

That's bad enough, but my tears began because of his brother. After I explained to him that even though he's making me very sad by saying that, I'll still be sweet to him because I love him no matter what. Then I left the room. I just heard Popo asking him why he doesn't like Mommy and why is he making her sad? Bubby repeated himself and Popo responded: "But she loves you."

Oh, it hurts so much.

Funny, because yesterday I spent some time explaining Valentine's Day to them - about how you spend that day showing the people you love that you love them by being sweet to them and giving them nice things. Mostly all that's stuck is that they'll get candy on Baby Bear's birthday, since that's also a Valentine's Day party at our house. Sigh.

Brandon and I are totally feeling deja vu (or what's that term for war veterans who have flashbacks of horrible scenes?) with the extreme moodiness on the preschooler front this week. It's exactly like just about one year ago. We are now solid believers in the theory that most kids will have behavior/mood issues at their half-year birthdays. They are unreasonable wailing time bombs at times. And you see it coming, similar to last year.

We will get through this phase. Again.


  1. Aw, I feel your pain. It breaks a mommy's heart but when the other child is just being sweetness itself it melts and mends the hurt all at once. I think there is something in the air, last week and this week has been more challenging than normal for us. You are both GREAT parents!! Keep doing what you guys do. :-) I'll be praying for you guys!!

  2. :( I'm positive he doesn't mean those things! He'll forget the whole thing soon and be giving you sloppy kisses. :) Oh the heartaches of motherhood!

  3. That is the same thing I used to tell Eddie when he used to say he didn't love me. The little jerk!

    But yeah, I still loved him. Those little lessons will hopefully pay off!